Chapter 1 done

I'm shutting my mind out like a book,
The chapter is over,
So please don't look.
The words, drip down the wall,
To stain my heart,
And make me feel small.

Show me your face you crazy liar,
While we look at you for hope,
I'm the one changing a tier.
Blinded by words and deeds,
You lay my hand on a book,
Only to break my heart, and mislead.

Ink drowning in my tears,
Yes you fool,
I am filled with fear.
Allow me to tell you,
That today, I sit on a fence,
Heaven or hell, where are you?

Shadows

Bring it down to my feet,
lift me as I speak,
Hold my glance
Take a chance
and leave.

Little crystals in the air,
Floating ghosts everywhere,
Footprints in the sky,
Only to swell the heart
and die.

Two way streets,
With running trees,
Catch my breath,
Before I leap,
To get cut, scrapped
and weep.

In an ocean of emptiness.

The worst nightmare comes true

And suddenly you feel like a building with no foundation

About to crash to ground

With nothing to break your fall

Nothing to hold you

Nothing to catch you

Your hands feel numb

Your eyes cannot cry

A part of the person you are is lost

It's an emptiness 

That just cannot be filled

That will be this huge black hole in your heart

With time we learn to bury the pain and move on

And then just when you least expect it 

A flood of memories , conversations and love come gushing in

You want to laugh and cry at the same time

You want to break something and scream

You want to curl up and just weep till you go to sleep

And before you know it you are back to normal

You are doing what you are supposed to do

The black hole has gotten smaller

I have so much to tell you and so much to show you

I have so many questions 

I have so much of love to give

I have so much to learn

and in this ocean of emptiness.... You beat through my soul.

Funny Ferris Wheel

Okay, ten months and still counting. Its been about ten months since I got to this glorious city Bombay. Yes and I say Bombay because I have always known of it as Bombay. Every summer vacation of mine was spent in this city,which was the monsoon season in Bombay. So we would spend a good month and a half here with our grandparents. I never once thought I would land up in this city let alone venture the thought of this city being a permanent base for me (well at least for now). I've lived in five cities so far in my life, Kuwait, Abu-Dhabi, Bangalore, Chennai and now Bombay, and Bombay just stands out, like this huge bee hive of buzzing people.

There is something about this city that no other city in India has. How ever fast this city is, it's fun, versatile, spirited, and a complete cocktail of cultures. When I first moved here I didn't really think I would survive too long, but to my luck I started meeting people in the tiny little indie music industry that we have here. And they are probably the reason I got motivated. You see people here who are struggling to do what they believe in and survive somehow. Everyone will bitch about the rents and how expensive it is to stay here but inevitably they manage. And that's what keeps me going. The fact that there are people who are not willing to give up on their dreams regardless. And thats the way it should be :)