Saturday 30 July 2011

In an ocean of emptiness.

The worst nightmare comes true
And suddenly you feel like a building with no foundation
About to crash to ground
With nothing to break your fall
Nothing to hold you
Nothing to catch you
Your hands feel numb
Your eyes cannot cry
A part of the person you are is lost

It's an emptiness 
That just cannot be filled
That will be this huge black hole in your heart
With time we learn to bury the pain and move on
And then just when you least expect it 
A flood of memories , conversations and love come gushing in
You want to laugh and cry at the same time
You want to break something and scream
You want to curl up and just weep till you go to sleep
And before you know it you are back to normal
You are doing what you are supposed to do

The black hole has gotten smaller
I have so much to tell you and so much to show you
I have so many questions 
I have so much of love to give
I have so much to learn
and in this ocean of emptiness.... You beat through my soul.